feral intentions

one galloping wild horse
on miles of wilderness lay
in youthful restlessness
ones wild mind races away

one long array of thoughts
actuating mindless rebellion
living in flash of a canon fired
and then retired to cogitate alone

one leap into sun, to find
where all answers remain
undisclosed to my champion
not far from hidden, yet ever found

one profound heart to carry
of desires so many but destiny
destiny be delirious an affair
bemock all taunts back at 'em

one search for glory forever
that glory is in within thee
gratification of what one be
makes life righteous and free

singing life

A song that I lost
lost in midst of all noise
This song that was me once

A song so strong
shines each morning
Takes on the sun as it rise

A song so green
like wind it moves
Even trees sway and dance

A song so red
like it lives in fire
Burning all ill in pyre within

A song so brown
like earth it smells
First rain touching man

A song so blue
like echoes in clear sky
Confronting all borders and boundaries

This song is not lost
its was hiding withing me
I found it now to set it free

Alleviate

Hey there! what are you looking at?
i am not lost in this moor,
nor am i drunk from yesterday.
i am not what you may think.

A spot to sit and meditate?
i need none its easy this way.
Already spent years long,
looking for good new ways

Don't reason now; you Holy
Lot good lectures i relayed.
Back then was a fool;
little more fool i am now.

Not another lonely soul here,
all friends on speed dial.
Not cramped with, "I need some space"
my world a pretty big place.

Running away is not my game,
else you wont see me here.
Head first and run into unknown
that is how i walk my friend.

But today i am here for you.
Your little boat at winds grace.
Get in and row to which shore you shall;
i can not take without your will.

Not that Samaritan from chapters old
my journey has no meaning alone.
These waters I forever tread,
many like you I bear a hand.

solitary solidarity

How did I become this
a man of no longing
Living like a death wish
what strange song singing


how did I become this
with no hope and help
unstable winter breeze
not a dog, yet alone I yelp

How did I become this
empty shell at shore
left my soul amiss
even strong legs are sore

How did I become this
one pale face of frown
no bloody heavenly bliss
broken dreams of a clown

How can I become this
to unfold in me that butterfly
leaping up for her first kiss
opening my wings in clear blue sky

overcoming me

I walked into this night
one very dark night
and into its darkest alleys
with a little bright light
to share with all who
share a plight same as I
I have seen but none until

a chilling breeze blowing
touched me on my face
colder and colder it gets
with evry breath I take
but I can't stop breathing
I have to keep moving mate
walking will keep me warm.

From behind a shadow jumps
there are more fears within
to be afraid of than from
you who threatens me now
of some unknown fate;
I pity you, you not know
what is coming for you.

Here it began to rain
drizzles to begin and
then poured on me n' around
I can just get wet and curse;
but I only smile and feel the rain
for I know what has now began
will also soon end.

Now a muddy road ahead
hesitation crept in my mind
will get dirty if I pass by;
why be afraid of getting dirty
if I am a clean man within
soon some rain will wash or
sun will dry me clean this morning.

I was alone when I began
have been walking for long
my dark night has turned dim
little more away is horizon
only now I know I were not alone
I see more man walking alongside
towards this growing light.

Alive in Sleep

Funny is in'it
a time that sweeps
slips by so quick
as if I hold sand
sand in my fist
and make it run
some so sad and
a hell lot of smiles.

all in a day as this
a bright beginning
silently rolled out
like a vigorous kiss
or like that moment
of eve when my
Sun is about to hide
in red of its own shine

A little bumpy ride
of cart and bull
teasing you are
songs of tingling bells
and the dust that rise
from under my wheels
meet the breeze to create
that mist of my bygone realm

Perhaps like running down
a smooth hill of lust
finally falling and rolling
on the soft grass moist
in dew of love, love is it?
a glittering stream of
sweet water flows by
whispering questions forever

A green pond in wilderness
with lotus leaves spread
like curtains, make me seek
uncertainties of my depth
yet have you not seen
all these blossoms rising
from depths of my green
I live an everlasting dream

need some rain

rain O' my mind
rain with all might
as I sit by your side
wash all dust over
my brow with your touch

And then rush
rush into drops
fall into my eyes
its been itching
ever since they cried

soak my face
as thy seasons turn
make me soft and shine
take away all old
all old, dead and dry

rain rain rain
O bloody rain
pour all you hold
in here and heaven
and all in between

drench me today
keep me wet tonight
give me your cold
yet I be happy
all loud in laughter

you my rain
live in my mind
pour from the skies
a mouth wide open
one gulp all I want
to wash all my stain

you must rain
this day and again
a drop of rain
is what i seek for
all world in pain

Of Faith, Fate and Lost Hope!

No rain forecasted
Neither a storm came
I still got these burns
Of a lightning struck

Your words bore such glee
That gives strange pains
My ears all upright, right?
But inside its all clamored

Feels like break all china
Tear all silk and satin
Run to unknown errands
My sun ain't sunny anymore

How I wish now dar'ln
In sleep this be dream
dream to fade away quick
A bad dream all it is, it be

Of unfortunate shell he is
Cracked n' dead within thee
Your waves keep playing with me
More to shore, a little to sea

I have I know always there be
small place in your heart for me
Once bright, warm, nice n' happi
But that be time long lost you see

Shall not wear nor throw away
An old pair of nice shoes
This is, is what has become
Just become in you of me

मेरी काहानी

दिन धुप में झुलाजता है
रात चांदनी में चमकता
कभी धुंद में घिरा रहता
कभी झुलज के सूख जाता
नदी होता तो क्या बात होती
में तो पानी हूँ तालाब का

बहती हवाओ ने उलझाया मुझे
किनारों ने भी ठुकराया
लहरें बने कभी, कभी ठेरा रहा
ऊन्ही पारो से टकराता रहा
नदी होता ...तोह क्या बात होती
में तो पानी हूँ तलब का

मचिलियो से भरा हूँ
कुछ पेर्ड भी है किनारों पे खड़े
मचिलिया मरर जाते सारे
पाते भी झड जाते है
नदी होता तोह बेह जाता
में तोह पानी हूँ तालाब का

आसमान नीली तोह में नीला
बादल घिर जाए तोह में कला
मेरा कोई रंग नहीं , पहचान नहीं
फिर भी कोशिस करता रहा
नदी नहीं तोह क्या बात हुई
में पानी, पानी तालाब का

what wish i wish

on an age old mountain ledge
under the old Indian fig
sat an equally old grey moke
of all years slowly passed by
he sat through rain and sun
but with nothing but just
a pinch of hope he survived

Seasons turned green to brown
brown to green and back again
many a god came 'n why?
Yet no reason or ransom
old moke just sat to hymn
hymn all a gods name
not a wish he did not deny

one another spring just arrive
while snow has just passed by
of all there appeared
in glittering white,
some green of the new and
with red of the rise
he seek none but thy

Of all he wished that old moke
happiness he called a name
so all in the sky and below
made a nod that rhymed
thy shall get that thy seek
be in peace 'n happiness be his

understanding me

writer pens into paper,
thoughts of wild berries
of unknown open roads
unfolding expressions
of experiences into living.

painter spreads the color,
o'er distant greens and hills
sketches every twinkle of an eye;
shades every wrinkle of time
into black and white of mind.

singer sings to glory;
plays to the rhythm
of birds chirping and
leaves rustling in wind
of life living within.

they all do what they dream
I dream too, yet I do
nothing of what I dream.
I am just a traveler;
I travel to distant horizons
walk past into falling skies.
I too write, paint and sing.
I do it all, all in my Dream.

It ain't me, it ain't you but us

Ain't a song to sing,
ain't a verse to read.
There's ain't me either;
Its all you in there!

"I found him once.
In a shift of time.
We were teen, I was
seven and he was nine.

We exchanged few things.
I gave him trust,
he gave me faith.
we became friends.

He call me Lil',
I called him Bill.
we created dreams;
Am liv'in it still!

The sun came o'er;
The clouds pass by;
We kept talking
under clear blue sky.

I liked him all,
n' loved his soul.
Yet lived in doubt;
What will it be all?

I swinged my mind,
like a twisted tide.
He tried it hard,
but only fell apart.

With cheeks all wet
and my eyes red.
I told him straight,
that I won't wait.

For he had another
that moved no further.
I learned it none,
he told me all.

I asked him once,
then turned my face.
Thy heart did ached,
I called it fate.

Kept him standing,I
went ahead pretending.
Fool Bill stared, yet
I kept waking.

Never heard him since.
He kept on standing,
when I went pretending
calling it an ending.

Then he came again,
in my last dream.
Smiled his best smile
and said goodbye.

I'm looking for Bill,
since last night
and all of today.
He was lost yesterday."

That's how she paints.
She painted thee;
I be she,she be me;
Living in it forever.

On My Tombstone is Written

Listen O' my good friend.
Do not carve me into stone,
Do not draft me into papers,
Do not sing me into songs,
And do no praise me either.
I am no good for 'em all.
But if you can then
remember me in there where it beats,
remember me for a pinch of salt,
remember me for a drop of rain,
remember me for a breath of air,
remember me as a friend.
No, not the best one I meant.
Yet remember me as best I am.
That is all that I hope,
For hope is all that I gave.

An Ode to My Shore

Sailing round for a year at sea,
arrived the same shore today,
with all love I carry alone.
Yet she bothers none,
same lines and same words,
just time changed and aged more.

To my glowing shore I said.
I said,"Darling I leave you again,
in hand of tides for this wish is yours.
Yet I pray as I say,
the blue of Sea will keep you safe,
the red of Sun will light your ways,
the white of Moon will watch your nights
and the green of Life will keep you alive.
Till I come back at this very shore.
Forgive me now, my Love.
And yes I will come again,
only a year more, only a year more."

So my ship sails once again
with more hope and faith,
to North Pole this time.
"To my North, Ahoy!!!Ahoy!!!
Ahoy!!! my men.
Turn, turn to my North", I said!

about curves and shadows

Since innumerable times I have been.
Innumerable thoughts I have seen.
Innumerable stars fall.
Innumerable soul's flight.
Innumerable minds about to rise.
With them all,
Innumerable time I rise and fall.
Innumerable dreams,
of happiness and of grief.
Innumerable men with
Innumerable meanings, throwing
Innumerable shadows on me.
Yet for Innumerable times.
In the dark of the night.
I spread the light;
I will spread the light.

road ahead

there would be more waiting;
there would be more storms;
there would be more bad days,
but there is no remorse.

the rains are about to come,
the skies have turned darker,
the lightning has struck again,
but this fire will not die.

the roads have all ditched,
the bridges all broken,
the shoes too gave way,
but my feet will move on.

some friends became foes,
some foes became friends,
some are about to change,
but I remain the same.


i am not running fast,
i am not dreaming either,
i am not praying to God,
i am just walking past,
another milestone.

Anymore

At times when I am alone,
why my eyes look for you
in this crowd unknown?

Now that you don't want
me anymore, you overcame
your scores on shoulders mine.

I may not answer how, but
in my dreams you come even more.
How can you laugh at my
wet eyes? Fool I am,
thought you came for a hug.

In your heart you may think
I love no more.
No honey! I only love you ever more.
Its just maybe I don't want you anymore.

'AFTERMATH'........to begin

Adroit- you 'Neither 'Either though,
Uncouth you took what 'Errand though,
Nonsense! what a 'Loony you though.
Take me to 'Apogee of your thoughts.
Yobbish all 'Murk in your eyes.
Jeopardy-another 'ice word
Ineffable I, 'Doubtfully describe self.
But I See What Ascetic Life
yes, just pieces of broken glass again...

Paroxysm

Pacified you think you are?
Hey! pal then be not again,
peep at what history has on my face.

Lets sing our paeans of joy.
Lets ride our palominos to triumph.
And let all paparazzo's make a run for.

Yes! though this is not panacea of life.
But yet not to remorse to this paradox.
They may describe us paranoia.
But yet we'll put panoplous ends.

Hey! pal live it whole.
may be not become some parvenu tomorrow.
Well nor have paucity of any kind.
Pauper they may think we are.
Correct! they be but yet pacified we are.

"four years passed"

On the roof top tonight
we mournfully celebrate.
With the smoke rising
from our breath, of
tobacco burning at
the tip and all the glasses
of loneliness filled to
brim with liquor of
friendship.

Through this mist i
peep into this dark night.
Only to see our days
twinkling in those blur stars.
All friends as we sit not a
word to utter, lost in this
night all those songs we sang,
all moves we danced,
even tears all dried out.

Tonight we recall in our eyes
how we came alone to this moor,
we became friends once and
vowed to live in it forever.
These four years, how we climbed
hills of laws, theories and principles.
Crossed the vallies of
experiments and experiences.
Plunged into murky waters
of uncertainty, instability and
complete jeopardy.
Again we flew up into sky
of superstitious affairs.
We engineered it all and
we survived this quagmire.

But then where, where to
begin this end.
Its only now, let me sing
the pebbles of glory we
gathered, all balls we
played. Over that green
field lets scatter them all.
To those strings we
plucked and drums that
rolled, the waves we created
let them mingle in the wind.

Where... !, i ask where
are the laughters and
giggles that echoed,
in classrooms and halls
and corridors, yes all
vanished into these walls forever.

Like all Illiads and Odysseys,
our legacy in hands of time
tonight we offer.
We know tomorrow maybe
brighter, yet much more
lonely it shall be.